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Came in Second
Ok, so this may be a petty thing to think about, but I do. Have you ever being “The last Guy” or “The Last Gal”? What I mean by this is have you dated someone and the next person they date is “it”, their match? How did you feel knowing you were the “last guy’?
In all fairness I am very happy for her, that she found the person she wants to be with, but what was it that didn’t work with us? Was it me? Was it her? Was it karma? What ever it was I can’t put a finger on it and it is weird knowing I am second best. Not that I have not been second best before, but never in this manner.
If we were not talking as happens so often when two people break it off I guess I would not be wondering about it. But we have remained friends and we check up on each other from time to time. So I guess it is only normal to wonder about it. I am not sure I can put a finger on the feeling but to say that there is a feeling there.
Maybe I am jealous, after all I did not want to end the relationship. Maybe I am a bit envious too, he’s getting what I wanted. Whatever, it is subtle and there and hard to grasp.
Maybe I just need to get over it, but that is going to take time.
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