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Posted by HarshawJ in Musings
on Wednesday, November 16, 2005 11:00:28 AM
in a "No particular mood" mood.

Alone Again, Naturally

Sometimes people seem to drift apart and there is really nothing that you can do about it. The situation is just such that the two of you must be apart and time together falls to nothing. Eventually, even the phone calls get to the point where there is little to say and even what is said is ring hollow.

What do you do in these cases? I am never sure. I know that I care a great deal for her, it is just that what was there is not any more. Does she become just one more friend in your life? Seems to me that has to be the case.

Oh well, no rush for anything, just “Alone Again, Naturally”

I am not this torn up, but going with my habit of adding song lyrics… here are some more:

Alone Again, Naturally
By Gilbert O’Sullivan

In a little while from now
If I’m not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top will throw myself off
In an effort to make it clear to who
Ever what it’s like when you’re shattered
Left standing in the lurch at a church
Where people saying: “My God, that’s tough
She’s stood him up”
No point in us remaining
We may as well go home
As I did on my own
Alone again, naturally

To think that only yesterday
I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to well wouldn’t do
The role I was about to play
But as if to knock me down
Reality came around
And without so much, as a mere touch
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt
Talk about God and His mercy
Or if He really does exist
Why did He desert me in my hour of need
I truly am indeed Alone again, naturally

It seems to me that there are more hearts
broken in the world that can’t be mended
Left unattended
What do we do? What do we do?

Alone again, naturally
Now looking back over the years
And whatever else that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to hide the tears
And at sixty-five years old
My mother, God rest her soul,
Couldn’t understand why the only man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start with a heart so badly broken
Despite encouragement from me
No words were ever spoken
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again, naturally
Alone again, naturally

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Posted by HarshawJ on
11/16/05 02:33:14 PM

Welcome back... missed you too... It has been an interesting month for me, some good, some bad, and now I feel like I am missing a lover. There may be good things on the horizon, but for now, I am alone.

Oh well.

- JB

Posted by TxRose on
11/17/05 12:12:43 AM

Everything for a reason; a reason for everything - and, yet, are we never to ask why? I live for the moment at this time and continue working on my goals at hand while waiting for my mystery love to know it is I that cares.

Knowing the feelings you eminate, having felt them before myself, I certainly send you all my hugs to you and a kiss on the forehead to tell you that everything will be okay.

Someday we will be able to see our pathways and know truly how we are all destined to be, aside from the hurdles we cross along the way.

I hope and pray that your loneliness feelings will subside as you move forward to achieve your goals and live a victorious life while waiting that special someone to blend into your life as well.

Always,

TxRose

Posted by TxRose on
11/17/05 12:31:40 AM

ps I understand your feelings of loneliness that you are experiencing all too well. After all, this very week, I have successfully pushed out a roommate (my friend's son), albeit he thinks that this decision was all his; and, my daughter, has started spending much more time with her new boyfriend. The apartment's noises are quite different now; it is just Leo (the cat) and myself.

Besides the normal activities I do, I have had my freedom at the apartment and have managed to re-arrange each room differently (room by room) in accordance to the way I would have it; yet, missing the sounds of those coming and going out of the apartment. Oh, well.

This, too, shall pass - right???? I continue to practice what I wish and pray for others.

Laters.

TxRose

Posted by TxRose on
11/17/05 12:33:25 AM

Jeff: How come my last two comments are decending and not ascending? Just curious.

K

Posted by HarshawJ on
11/17/05 01:19:29 AM

K

Not sure why, I do know that is you open a window and comment (then not finish) and open another comment (and finish that one first) the first will post first since the time stamp is recorded on the form.

The same hold true with posts (it has happened to me) that I start a long post and someone posts while I am working o the long post, the post that was started first posts first, the the second one posts over it. Now here is the weird thing... The second post will show up and display normal, then when the original first post hits, it is buried one deep already.

Annoying, but makes sense.

- JB

Posted by TxRose on
11/17/05 05:33:19 AM

Excepting, the posts were done totally separate and in the order that they posted. So, it doesn't make sense at all. Really wierd.

K

Posted by on
11/19/05 01:27:58 PM

Why ask why? Choose Bud Dry? But seriously... I have only been in one relationship where there was drift like that, so I am by no means an expert. In this case, I drifted right into the arms of another woman. The woman I drifted away from dated another of my friends and subsequently went certifiably insane. I then learned my greatest life lesson: naver date anyone my friend Josh dates.
But back to a more serious tack... It seems to me that for a relationship to end with a whimper and not a bang is a terrible thing. It is even more upsetting when you are the one left on the shores and the other person is the one who has drifted away for whatever reason. Who is to blame? If it's me, do I go into a depressive melancholic state? If it's her, do I rant and rave, then grieve? Or do I just sit back, pop in a Jackie Chan DVD and drown my ambivilence in a six-pack? As for staying friends with ex-lovers... don't ask me. Most of mine are out of state, or in a state of insanity...