Like many entries, this one was sparked by a question someone asked me. They asked me, “So, how do you see the world?” Simple question, complex answer.

Many people see the world in black and white, or as a set of grays, or even in chromatic brilliance. Some will say they see it as paths and options, everyone carving out their route in the day to day grind. For me the view of the world is a lot more complex. I see it as a group of interlocking soap bubbles, all affecting each other. Think about it like a 3D Venn Diagram, only more so.

When I think about things I try not to let preconceived notions mix into the patterns. I try not to set my rules in any one place and let the ideas and thought lead where they will regardless of the final thought or conclusion. Sometimes the lines of reasoning are clear and satisfying, other times the conclusions are dark and foreboding. As I add more information to the thought line, more bubble crop up and lead to different ideas, they split off like three bubbles whose surface have crossed and I am reading the intersection. Sometimes a bubble breaks of and creates more and new thought processes. This is as clear as I can describe it but to add it does not all happen in three dimensions.

It is hard to describe what happens when I do get into conversations. I tend to move down lines of argument that are sometimes tangent to the topic at hand only to tie it in later, to make a point. I look at things through devils advocate point of view with equal ease as my more firm beliefs. I try to break my own view points as strongly as make them to put stronger weight on correct assumptions and wipe away erroneous lines as soon as possible.

I look around and I see patterns in everything. The lines of a building will extend and correlate (or not) and form more complex patterns. Objects in motion will acquire trailing and leading lines, predictor of future motions. Shapes sometimes twist as I grasp their topography and morph them in and through other objects as thought games. Sometimes it makes for interesting times when I am tired and things really slow. It is like the effects in “A Beautiful Mind”, “Little Man Tate” or even “Searching for Bobby Fischer”, I see them overlaid in my minds eye.

In terms of interpersonal relationship, friends and lovers, there are many times I put myself in anothers place and empathize with what they are feeling. I try to imagine what it is like for them, how they would react and give them an experience or at least make it as good for them as for me.

There is so much I see, feel, hear, imagine and know that to describe it all in words can not me done effectively at all. To describe some of what I am feeling and experiencing I would have to make up new words and then define them in painstaking detail and hope that you understand it. I have searched for the words in the past and given up. I would like to show you, but a 2D drawing would not do.

Forgive me, but this is the best I can answer this question.