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Posted by Lucy2 in Musings
on Tuesday, January 10, 2006 01:48:48 AM
in a "peaceful" mood.

Life is Good

1.09.06
“Our house is a very, very, very fine house.
With 6 cats in the yard, life used to be so hard.
Now everything is easy ‘cause of you. “

Wow. What a great few weeks it has been. Life is good. Actually my attitude about life is good hence my life is great.

I have the best roommate I could ask for; unconditional love and acceptance, easy going and my best friend these days. (according to Gayle this should read “and in all the days of the future and in many past life times.” Geeze I hope so.) OK we are both fucking nuts but in a very good way.

We watched American Beauty tonight. What an awesome movie. I want to show it to my kids and say “See! Slow Down for cryin out loud! Stop trying to make everything so plastic and see the beauty that is really there! Now I have never felt stupid for picking up bits of rusted metal or hunks of…. well for lack of descriptive words… stuff …..on my walks. The video in the movie kind of captured what I try to see. I try to see beauty in the mundane, in the people, in my environment, in myself too. Sometimes, in ourselves, that is the hardest place for most of us to see it. To slow down. To down right stop and observe and try…to see… to sense, with every part of my being the world I live in and how marvelous it is.

This isn’t what I wanted to talk about tonight though. What I had been thinking about earlier, thinking about the unconditional love I feel in the place where I live. From Gayle and the six kitties. Thinking that maybe I am finally getting it. That I am reflecting and therefore attracting this good thing. The other day I wondered what I must have been like living with Russ. Just how sick I must have been to attract the abuse and to reflect it back. If like was attracting like…and now how wonderful that I am attracting healthier people into my life. Happier people. That I am learning not to reflect back or generate the pain and anger or draw it to me. To recognize it and walk away. To recognize when something is good too.

I have been both the young man and the mother in American Beauty. Thank goodness somewhere along the way I have become Lester, I feel as if I am waking up from a coma…. Remembering what I once was….

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Posted by TxRose on
01/10/06 06:31:09 PM

Lucy & Pam - I have never seen the movie; well, not yet. I have just added it to my list of want to dos.

Today, I am waiting on a someone to help me with a foundational mattress I purchased as an award for the hard work I went through during Decemeber. I need help moving the top mattress over and sandwiching the new between the two old mattresses. At least it is getting a new look to my bed without giving up the comfort of a broken in mattress!! lol...

I have also purchased a file cabinet that is to be delivered which will give me a way to look beyond the stacks of papers that have been building during the past year of working out of the home so very much. It is a 2-drawer heavy duty cabinet that is very deep - but, it has its limitations, albeit a start to make a dent in the stacks of paperwork and at a steal of a price!

All in all, this shall allow me to put on my rose colored glasses and think that there is peace in the world once again - at least, insofar as my apartment.