It has been one of those weeks so far, everything seems so surreal and tense and it has put me in a kind of funk. It can’t all be because I have not been able to solve a programming issue, or not really working. And for whatever reason, it isn’t money. That doesn’t leave much to be bothering me.

Love life? Not really, that has been ok lately, no complaints, if a little lacking, but no complaints.

Family? Yeah, there is missing my daughter, but that is an ongoing thing. And while I do miss her, I have learned to accept it and move on.

Future? Yeah, well, that may be it. It does not feel like I am making enough progress and I am used to making progress in some way or another. I know that this project could be very good and who knows where it ends up, so I plug away at it hoping that it works out.

Health? Well, I finally got rid of that cold that was plaguing me, that is a good thing. Been feeling ok otherwise, if a little warn out, but that just leads to the age old diagnosis of depression. Maybe just a slight level of general depression. I know I have been a little depressed, been that way for a long time. Maybe I need Prozac or something. I don’t know. Anything that may help at this point.

All I know is I need something to snap me out of this malaise. Usually I would drive, but at the cost of gas these days… who knows how much that would cost at a time when I do need to be frugal. Maybe next week…

So, I have to unwind… some good things to unwind… read, movies, drive, game (RPG, but I do not have my usual cast of friends around me anymore for that), sex and skirt chasing (yes and no), something else? I don’t know… got to figure it out.