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It Has Been a Year
One year ago I was finally getting my life back together. I had a number of girlfriends, all potentially wonderful people, especially one that would have worked out real well if things had been slightly different, and a couple of others that seemed to be right for me. It was a time that allowed me to explore a lot of different avenues and discover things about myself that I did not know. It was also the time I started blogging.
It was a year filled with changes and unexpected emotions and loves. Some worked, some did not, and another I wish would have. One love was not as expected, the next was not destine to be, the third was too far away and could not be worked out, and the forth was a complete surprise and wonderful even now. My life has certainly been filled with wonderful women and hopefully will continue to be.
So here I am one year later and things are looking better for me. I have a steady girlfriend I care deeply for, my best friend has joined me in Las Vegas after a long time of urging him to make the move. My job is hard and tiring but it is paying the bills, and all in all I feel I am creating a new life. Things are looking up in spite of the turmoil my ex is inflicting on me. I have had some set backs in the last year, some losses that have produces gains, some gains that have produced losses. I have taken up a former love (photography) and feel as though it is rounding out my life well.
Circumstances in my life are still changing around me, but for now I feel as though I am guiding the changes for the best. I think I have a better grasp on my life than I did a year ago with many life lessons learned and new perspectives to help me make better decisions.
There are still things in my life that I want and cannot achieve right now, but those things are for me to know and not share right now in a blog entry. They are secret desires to be shared in the future as things get better and people know me well enough to not think I am a total lunatic. They are the desires of the masked self that we do not reveal with ease, the secrets we all have and guard with a passion.
So, here I am, growing and still blogging. It will be interesting to see where the next year takes me, takes us all.
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